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My New Year’s Resolutions for 2016


For a long time, I held on tight to the assertion that resolutions, especially for the new year, were utter nonsense. New Year’s resolutions are something that you don’t stick to anyway, and using an arbitrary date as a “fresh start” when it’s just the same ol’ shit, is beyond stupid. Well. I still kinda believe that. But I also believe that you should continue to strive towards becoming a better person, setting goals for yourself, trying to improve things bit by bit, and so what if I use the New Year as the proclamation for those goals? This is an ongoing process, anyway, but just like anyone else (yup, bandwagon and everything), I’ll share with you things that I hope I will improve upon in 2016. In no particular order.

1. Read more.

One would think that as a Lit student, I would read fast, efficiently, and most importantly, a lot. Well, I don’t. Though I’ve actually won my unambitious Goodreads Reading Challenge of reading 10 books in 2015, I’m gonna try to exceed that this time by reading 25 books in 2016. Ahem. Oh well.

2. Go swimming.

I mean, on a regular basis. Not just once or twice once in a while when I happen to feel like it, or splashing around in the outdoor swimming pool in the summertime. Swimming is one of the few types of exercise I’m not afraid of in terms of wearing me out too much, something where I can push myself without completely exhausting myself. Plus if I actually used the pool at uni, I could even do it for free. Yay!

3. Do Yoga.

On that same note, I notice how good yoga is for my muscles – and for my peace of mind. It’s one of those things that’s so easy to set up, I only need my yoga mat and maybe an instruction video, and yet it’s also so easy to forget. Definitely need to take some time to relax and practise mindfulness.

4. Keep a Happy Jar again.

A Happy Jar is a jar where you keep a note with happy moments. Somebody said a nice thing to you? You had a great day? Got a new job, or finished a project? Anything that makes you happy get jotted down and put into the jar. I did this for 2013 and 2014, started it again this year and then just … forgot about it. I’m actually kind of sad I won’t get to sit down and look at all my happy memories of the year on New Year’s Eve, as I did the years before. So … yeah. Doing this again!

5. Visit friends and travel more.

I’ve not been travelling much in 2015, apart from going to London as usual. Travel is stressful for me, because I don’t react well to change and am pretty peculiar in my needs (thinking of bathroom requirements especially). I would very much like to change that – people I would like to meet are Stüffs in Berlin and Mia in Vienna. I would also like to go to the Frankfurt Book Fair, Summer in the City in London and spend my birthday in Amsterdam. Probably gonna have to cross out one or two of these. No idea how I’m gonna afford all that, by the way.

There are a couple more goals I’ve got in the back of my mind, like keeping up my blog and YouTube channel, but since I’m already on that, I wanted to keep my resolutions to things that I actually have to change and that are mostly focused on self-care. What are your New Year’s resolutions for 2016? Or do you refuse to take part in it at all? xx

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Looking back on 2015

It’s been a couple of months (years?) since I told you guys what’s actually going on in my life, so I’m gonna jump on yet another bandwagon. 2015 was a fantastic year, overall. I’m still struggling with a lot of things, but I’m so happy with where I am in life and where it seems I’m going. So follow me on my journey back through 2015!


looking back on 2015 - january { f.l.t.r.:  New Year’s fireworks / Fav graphic novel /
Taking a stand against Pegida / HOLY SHIT SNOW }

The year was off to an incredibly quiet start. Anna was staying over at my place, we were watching Let’s Plays, and at midnight I dashed outside to the balcony to my (now former) flatmates, wished them a Happy New Year, watched the fireworks, and went back inside. January is always a bit hard for me – most of what gets me through the cold and dreary winter months are the Christmas lights, that are usually all taken down in January, leaving everything horribly grey. And cold. I froze my butt off at the rally against Pegida (y’know, the racist organisation in Germany who claims Muslims are invading our country and stealing our culture …). Worth it anyway. I think around 11,000 people attended? As long as refugee homes are burning, things like these are important.


looking back on 2015 - february{ Photoshoot in a local park / birthday selfies /
planner doodles / “studying” in the library }

February is my birthday month! I turned 24 this year and got something I’d been longing for for years: my family pitched in together to get me a DSLR! I’m in love with this baby. I’ve since taken it on many photo walks (though I’m still in dire need of a lot of practice, yikes) and have started a YouTube channel. YouTube especially has been so much fun! Although I wasn’t able to stick with a weekly video routine, making videos has helped me in so many ways, to gain more confidence, practise spoken English more, or just develop my creativity.
My birthday was spent with my best friend Anna and my (now) flatmate Zoe, who made the day unforgettable. I love those girls so much. We went to Wobu, one of my favourite restaurants in Bielefeld, who make one of the best burgers I’ve ever had. It was around this time that I decided to become vegetarian, at least to try it out. So far, I’ve only eaten meat on three occasions since then. Continue reading

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Merry Christmas et al

merry christmas

Exactly the same location as last year, I am once again sitting in my grandma’s guest room as I am typing these words. If you’re celebrating Christmas, I wish you the happiest of holidays, and if you’re not, well, Happy Friday. Wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, I hope you’re enjoying the food and your family, or have enough countenance to ignore stressful relatives.

I’ve been here since the 23rd, and later today my mum and I will be leaving for Paderborn to my mum’s place, where we’ll meet my brother and his family, and tomorrow there’ll be the big Christmas lunch with my mum’s side of the family. Same procedure as every year, basically.

It will actually be quite interesting, because the lunch is a big buffet that, as far as I can remember, has been fairly meat-heavy in its selection, and this is my first Christmas as a vegetarian. Bound to be a challenge, especially since I’m already a bit limited in my food choice due to my fickle gut. But hey, if all else fails I’ll just snack on pasta all day!

I’m pumped.
Now stop reading this and go stuff your face with food. xx

Happy Holidays!

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50 Things That Make Me Happy

While the Americans across the pond are celebrating the somewhat dubious tradition of Thanksgiving (and Black Friday), I felt I might imitate that feeling. Not necessarily the questionable roots of the holiday – not really interested in committing genocide against Native people – but thinking about things I’m grateful for and that make me happy.

We tend to focus on things that annoy us far too much, especially people that have a tendency towards depression or anxiety, so maybe this list can serve as a reminder to you and to myself that the world is actually littered with beautiful things.

50 Things That Make Me Happy

1. My friends. Whenever I talk about isolation and withdrawing myself, at least one of them is quick to say “yeah but that’s not gonna happen again. You’ve got us now.” and it warms my heart every time.

2. Cats. I don’t own one, sadly, but just looking at cats makes me squee like the lil girl I am.

3. Scented Candles.

4. When a photo (especially an analogue one) turns out exactly – or better! – as I’d planned.

5. Christmas markets. Winter is such a dark and dreary seasons, but Christmas lights and markets make everything better.

6. Warming up with a hot cup of tea after coming back home from the cold.

7. Avocados.

8. Putting on make-up (when I’m not in a rush). There’s something meditative and therapeutic about it.

9. My brother (and his family). Because of our age difference, we didn’t grow up together, but especially in recent years he’s been one of my biggest supporters.

10. On that same note – my cousins. Quite involuntarily and accidentally, I entirely blame them for getting me out of my worst depressive phase and giving me inspiration to start anew.

11. Fresh laundry.

12. My flatmates. Okay, admittedly, I’m cheating, because my flatmates are also my friends, but they deserve a special mention. I’m so happy I’ve got those two, I don’t think I’ve ever felt more at home anywhere else.

13. Dinosaurs. I don’t know when exactly it started, but I’ve loved dinosaurs for as long as I can remember. They still get me all giddy and excited.

14. On that note – Natural History museums. Especially if they have an extensive dinosaur collection.

15. Wild flower beds. Our city has these patches of wild flowers on some lawns besides the roads, and in spring/summer it’s the most beautiful sight. Also: yay bees!

16. Red lipstick.

17. Pretty book covers. You shan’t judge a book by its cover, but that won’t stop me from buying the prettiest one I can get my hands on.

18. The smell of fresh mint leaves.

19. Salted Caramel everything.

20. Looking out the window while riding a train. Especially when it’s snowing.

21. Being able to sleep in.

22. Baking.

23. New stationery. Old stationery, for that matter. Just … stationery.

24. Succulents. One of the few plants that will actually survive being cared for by me.

25. Getting paid for the work you do. Even if it’s just “menial” tasks.

26. Noticing that you’re getting better at things.

27. Making new experiences. Although they’re sometimes just as much a cause for anxiety, overall I love doing new things.

28. Indie folk songs. Especially if they’ve got amazingly dark and sinister lyrics, paired with a cutesy melody.

29. Reading. I’ve avoided books for so long because of a very low attention span, but I’m slowly living up to the name of a Literature student.

30. Making new friends that are already intersectional feminists/socially conscious. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.

31. Related to that: engaging discussions about social issues that don’t make my head hurt afterwards.

32. Feeling like I’ve ruined a batch of cakes/cookies, but people love them anyway. (Though maybe they’re just being nice?)

33. Lush. ’nuff said. Just … Lush.

34. London. Hellishly expensive and hellishly crowdy, but it still manages to make me happy.

35. Fairy lights/Christmas lights/Lichterketten. Especially as bokeh on photos. There are whole photo albums on my computer with nothing but bokeh.

36. Hugs.

37. Eating food that doesn’t upset my digestion afterwards.

38. Discovering new cruelty-free brands.

39. Great brand design. Makes me almost not care about the content. Almost.

40. Crisp spring air after a long and cold winter.

41. Pretty architecture. (Who am I kidding, especially in Britain, but almost every place has pretty buildings.)

42. Feeling confident. It’s kind of a new feeling, but I’m digging it.

43. Discovering that whatever it is I’m going through, there are people out there who’ve gone through something similar and can help/relate.

44. Cake.

45. Chai Latte.

46. Christmas spices.

47. Feeling productive.

48. Netflix.

49. YouTube. No seriously, watching the videos on channels I’ve subscribed to is always one of the highlights of my day. So many lovely people.

50. My mum. Of course. xx

Admittedly, this was fairly Christmas-heavy, but what can I say, I’m all doped up on Christmas spirit already.
Soo … what makes you happy?

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New Phone, Who Dis?

Lately, my old phone’s really been getting on my nerves. Well, when I say old, I mean the phone that I bought two years ago and that is still working perfectly.
… apart from the fact that it has only 8GB. And the camera isn’t the greatest. And it was slow. And … listen, I just had to justify buying a shiny new gadget, okay?

new phone

Being the person that I am, I didn’t get the new-new iPhone (waaay too big for my hands, anyway), and instead opted for the iPhone 5s. With 32GB. To download aaaaall the apps.
Along with it, I splurged a bit further to feed into my dinosaur obsession and get myself a real pretty case for it.

new phone

I got this off redbubble, and so far, I’m really amazed by that site. I have no idea how vigilant they are in determining if their artists are the real copyright owners of their work – probably not very, to be honest – but I really am fond of the quality of their items.
I’ve ordered some vinyl stickers on there in the past, which made me go back for a phone case now, and it’s really sturdy, the print on it is very high quality, and the price isn’t too bad for a custom piece by an independent artist. Artists on redbubble earn about 17% of the retail price – to be quite honest, I have no idea if that is a lot or very little, but there it goes, just throwing that information out there.

new phone

The few times I’ve had contact with the redbubble customer service, I’ve always been more than pleasantly surprised.
In short, I’m a fan. #notsponsored (#sadly)

For some shameless pluggin’, I’m also (briefly) talking about the case and the phone in my YouTube video about my favourites this month.

And what have you guys been up to? x

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